Just because

-Shamael Mortuza

Just because I’m not bleeding,

Doesn’t mean I haven’t been cut deep;

My eyes may be dry,

But my lonely heart still weeps.

Just because you can’t see bruises

Doesn’t mean I’m not injured from abuse.

I’m not in a wheelchair;

Yet I still feel paralyzed – so numb, so sterilized.

Just because I don’t say it,

Don’t think that I don’t care!

Just because I cover up my feelings,

Doesn’t mean that they’re not there.

And it’s true I leave things unspoken

Because I’m afraid of being broken

Affection only ever led to destruction,

Consumed my soul like a giant suction-

So around my heart is where

I’ve built that wall,

So I never, ever have to fall,

But within those walls you would find:

The tears I’ve cried,

All the emotions I chose to hide.

Just because my heart is beating,

Doesn’t mean I haven’t died

A thousand deaths inside.