๐ˆ ๐ฒ๐ž๐š๐ซ๐ง๐ž๐ ๐Ÿ๐จ๐ซ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฌ๐จ ๐ฅ๐จ๐ง๐ 

Panic, anxiety, trembling, shaking โ€“ a mixture of feelingsโ€“ I felt while waiting outside the operating theatre. It was 10 AM in the morning when a melody rang on my phone. The voice on the other side of the phone was nothing that I expected, it was exactly the opposite. 

”Come over! Your sister has been hospitalised, anything can happenโ€  A deep sense of fear was clearly visible in their voice. 

That all took me by surprise. โ€œHow could this be! Itโ€™s not possibleโ€. I thought to myself. That was enough for me! I  got up with my messy hair, wrinkling clothes, and rushed towards the  hospital.

The vibrant reminder reigns across the fog in my mind, my body failing to give me oxygen to keep running as I ignore everything else around me. Barely can I curse to show my frustration, because today all the cab decided to not take the route to hospital. I scolded and told myself, I would definitely work out next time. Hopefully! 

As I was running behind the time, I kept running aimlessly in the middle of the street, just to get a vehicle so that I could reach the hospital. Must the people have thought of me as a crazy girl who is just running from one place to another one. Emotions have already made their way to me nowโ€“ not just the panic and fear but miserably tormenting thoughts that start to lustre the frightening reality upon me.

โ€œNo, I can make it.โ€ I said to myself. Finally, the door awaits standing boldly at the end of  the last staircase that I rapidly climb. I felt like collapsing, the voice in my mind saying otherwise โ€œ Just a bit, you are going to reach there, donโ€™t collapse!โ€. 

I finally made it to herโ€“ to my sister, who has always been a role model, a person I can’t imagine my existence without. I quickly donated my blood for her and now โ€“ the most dreadful part of all, waiting!  

Don’t know how long it has been since then. How could I even feel better? When everyone around me is also in fear as well. Can someone hold me? Even for a bit? I am not running anymore, so why do I still feel out of breath?

Suddenly, the doctor comes into view and he says, โ€œ Congratulations! Itโ€™s a baby girlโ€. Immediately , I burst into tears and collapsed.

By Fatema Tuz Zannat